Well it has been a year. Scott and I made it through all the firsts this year. Firsts brought about many feelings for us. Memories of our excitement when we first found out we were expecting, getting the nursery ready,
bedrest, birthday, holidays, and even the seasons. Nate was born on Good Friday. I can remember when they told me we were going to deliver Nate early, that we would go into
surgery as soon as possible, and the fear on my doctor's face. When I went in for my last
xray before
surgery I remembered that Scott's grandfather passed away on Good Friday a few years before. I thought that was a sign from God that Scott's granddaddy would watch over all of us and get us through the day. What was amazing was as soon as I came out of the
xray I told Scott right away and he had been thinking the same thing at the same time. I believe that God saved us both that day. He had plans for us and he wasn't ready for us to be with Scott's granddaddy just yet. I didn't know what those plans were but I am starting to get an idea.
Our family has faced so many obstacles this year. We are all stronger for it though. Nate has already inspired so many people and influenced their lives. He has reminded people that a healthy baby is an everyday miracle. Nate reminds people to love what is important in their lives, to face challenges head on and not give up the fight. Nate taught me that it is all in God's hands and that prayers work. His smile warms the room instantly and when you look into his eyes your heart is warmed because there isn't any scars of the pain he once endured. He doesn't care that he can't hear everything around him or that he is slower to crawl or walk than other kids his age. He lives to make us smile and I hope to do the same for him.
So as we look back on our first E
aster since Nate was born I remember how much God has given to us and thank him for it everyday. I pray that this year will be easier on our hearts, but we will understand that it is all God's plan. Last year on Easter morning, Scott gave me two sapphire rings before he left me to go be with Nate. This year I was so happy to sit at Easter service with my husband at my side, my rings on my finger, and my son on my lap.
